Sunday, March 17, 2024
Day 04- 16/03/2024
I used to be someone who made up sexual stories or said 'I love you' just for the woman to feel good
Yesterday someone chatted with me and said ' I love you'. She expected me to recip[rocate
I could not. I don't know why
It is not becauseI turned the corner. But I no longer felt to.
Friday, March 15, 2024
Day 3-16/03/2024
Day went calm and lucid and peaceful
It gave me a feeling of a boat calmly and peacefully coming ashore. But this calm is sometimes frightening
In the evening I saw the movie Murder Mubarak. When I saw the relationship between two protagonists, it gave me a deja vu to the days gone by.
We know it would hurt us in the long run. But we still go for the forbidden fruit and get banished from the Garden of Eden
Wednesday, March 13, 2024
Day Two-15/03/2024
The Day two has not started well as my building security went away with my bicycle
He thinks I , being the only Non Gujarati here gives him license to do any bullshit with me
The good thing is having some time to chat with an old very very good friend of mine, whom I respect and love so much.
Yesterday someone asked to write something about her. I was honoured. It is good to be acknowledged. Everyone needs their validation
Word for the day is Trust
Yesterday I came out the morning to see my Building security tokk my bike and went somewhere. I was pissed off.
I feel that he is taking too much liberty with me as I don't belong here. I woke up his sleeping wife and gave hima piece of mind
I see my insecurity and mistrust spreading everywhere. I work up conspiracy theories in mind
Yesterday I went to speak with someone at my office and asked him what he thought of I moving to an apartment opposite to his. He was very indifferent.
Anyways yesterday's counselling went off very well. The answers and responses are so typical. But we get someone to open up with
The Beginning- Day One
I was not really looking forward to a therapy. The incomplete one a couple of years ago had left me with a bitterness
But when someone suggested yesterday, why not you try one. I did and to be honest I was not much pleased when the connectivity was poor. But now yes. I feel relieved. The reason being I found someone to talk to and share with although it comes with a price.
After the session I was riding my scooter and I saw this electric version of MG. How majestic. One day I may own one. Some day I may not have to thing about income minus expenses.
The evening at office was not great. The old boss had appeared out of nowhere and was too eager to humiliate mein front of the present boss. How insecure the bitch is. The world is full of people filled with mistrust and hate
Evening Mom called up, she is worried about Dad. Old age is catching up fast. Physically and emotionally.
I returned back home and I don't know I was filled with some beautiful memories. The times we met and made love. It feels heavenly
What I feel is we never know when the grape can turn sour. Enjoy it when it is ripe
Subscribe to:
Comments (Atom)